Pei Lan Dou Fa Hai Kum Yeong !!

Just to keep it fucking short n diabetically sweet...

Desmond Tang Tatt Mun is FUCKING GROUNDED !!!

YES

GROUNDED GAO GAO!!!

NO MERDEKA COUNTDOWN @ AH WING'S PLACE

NO PARTY @ WAI HONG'S PLACE

NO ENJOYZZZ

NO HAP HAP

NO NOTHING =(

till after SPM !?!!

HAIHHHHH!!!! Been looking forward to this shit and now i got screwed over...

And now im a sad guy cuz i don't get to witness Ah Wing showing off his cock talking skills..

MAJOR =( LA !

Life stinks. Sad but true, it is fucking dumb to get emo cause im grounded

i think ill go slit my wri........

ahh tha good ol' days...

Back then, in kindergarten it was all good, yea all good. You learned simple maths where 1 + 1 = 2 and not 1+1=10, read Peter and Jane books and when it came to break time you took out a tupperware which ur mom prepared for you, usually sausages or sandwiches. Yet there were a couple of super embarassing moments when you had to put on ur mom's make up for some play and your friend would laugh at one another, telling each other how stupid they looked or when you soiled your pants because you were too scared to go to the toilet alone after one of your friends told you he saw a ghost in there.

You remember the times when your mother and father would quarrel but you always never knew the reason for each fit they threw at one another. There were times when you would stand behind the closed door of their room to make sense out of their shouts and screams and occasionally you would end up crying for them to stop. Although you were curious, you never dared to ask them about their fights.

When Power Rangers was aired on TV, you were so intrigued with it up to a point where you were even reluctant to take a shit when Power Rangers was on TV although the head of the poo nugget had already peeked out from your butthole because you thought the fat faced guy in the cylinder tank had no significant role in the show because he was so helpless that even any one of those UFO-like grey coloured weak minions of the bad guys could whoop the fat faced guy's ass (that is if he even had one). That is just how cool Power Rangers was back then.

Then there was the first day of primary school. For the first week the school would be infested with parents and other kids like you who were crying half the time for no goddamn reason! During lunch hours in primary school, Police and Thief was the best shit ever. It was the best shit ever when you were a Thief but it was the worst shit ever when you were a Police because being a Police was bloody hell tiring since there wasn't a House for you to rest. You also hated the game when you were a Police because of its stupid rules - you catch a thief, thief goes to jail, thief number two runs to the jail, thief number two touches any thief that's inside the jail and that thief is free to roam around again. It was a never ending process. Since you were only in Standard at that time, the Standard 2 kids would pick on you and most of the time you were forced into becoming a Police. You hated that. But you still played Police and Thief every fucking day because it was the best shit ever. There were also times in class where you got free lessons and you and your friends got together and played pens where you had to knock all the other pens off the table, in which you would cheat and use some fat ass-ed metal pen which would knock off all their cheap kilometrico pens off in one shot.

There were also the times where you bragged and told your friends that you had five sports cars at home, five maids, a house with twenty rooms, your own TV in your room, three Playstation consoles, twenty Gameboys and five computers at home but in actual fact you only had one Proton Saga, one maid, a house with four rooms, an alarm radio in your room, one Playstation console, one Gameboy and one computer.

Later on you remember having thoughts of how your life as an eleven year old city kid was different from kids living in villages and small towns. You played Final Fantasy VII on Playstation whilst they went skinny dipping in murky rivers and lakes. You played Dune, Command&Conquer, Starcraft and Warcraft on PC whilst they climbed Pak Din's rambutan tree to steal the fruits. You were hooked on Dragonball and Rockman comics whilst they died playing meriam buloh. You also remember that it was a trend to write in autograph books back then.Writing all your hobbies, favourite food/drink, email address, icq number(assuming you could memorize it or even know how to use it) etc, etc. You clearly remember a certain poem you wrote in one of your classmate's autograph book that went like this:

Drink hot coffee,

Drink hot tea,
Burn your lips,
and remember me.

You remember breezing through UPSR and your parents boasted about your results to all your relatives whilst you boasted about your 250 bucks to your friends, 50 bucks for each A you scored. At 12 years old, you were a dumb kid who didn't know how to splash your cash on remodelling your car, condoms, porn mags, alcohol or foosball so you saved up all of it in your trusty piggy bank to which your older sibling sneakily smashed it, stole all of it and when you questioned them about it, they told you that he/she needed to "borrow" some cash.

Then it was the first day of high school. No one soiled their pants in class like primary school. But you did soil your pants that night and it wasn't brown or black in colour; it was of a foggy white coloured translucent liquid, very much like barley water left to sit in the fridge for over a week. At that point, you realized that you became a child all over again because you bloody hell wet your pants again just like when you were 4 years old.

Although you already got a piece of plastic with your face looking all wierd, you weren't any less playful. As much as you enjoyed testing out those kung fu moves you saw on TV on your sibling, you found out that there was another game that was more enjoyable than playing timbang with bottle caps from beer bottles or playing masak-masak with dolls with your sibling. The game was that whenever you were in the showers, you almost always never missed out on aiming the shower head on your crotch because you thought that it was the best shit that had ever happened to you, even better than the time when you popped some Crackle Pops into your mouth which would start fizzing and popping. Later on, you found the game to be more effective when you choked the shit out of your faucet with your mighty righty and pounded on it like there's always a tomorrow, to which tomorrow came and you did it again..and then, and again..and again..and sometimes up to eight times a day(as voon soon told me bout a friend of his once)...and sometimes you never managed any because halfway through, someone would barge into the room and you freaked and you pulled up your trousers and you put on a straight face right away and went on pretending as if you were checking your Hotmail inbox or playing Neopets.

From then on, your life changed helluva' lot. You remember freaking out when you had a moustache growing on your pubic region and thinking that it looked like an uncooked duck with its neck still intact. You remember how your opinions about girls changed from thinking that they were disgusting and annoying competitors in class because the number one student in the class was always a girl to thinking that they were the ones who could make you the coolest guy in school because you could couple up with a girl and boast to your buddies that you've got a girlfriend. It was then when your opinions impelled your sexual urges and you soon became flirtatious towards that girl whom you thought was the best looking in the whole of Secondary 2 but in actual fact she was just mediocre because all girls without make-up are mediocre and that's why nowadays girls as young as twelve are using cosmetics just so they won't look mediocre but too bad they all look wierd just because they haven't fully developed.

You still recall how you used to steal a few glances at her during lunch time and how you used to look for excuses to exchange a few words with her. Although you were a newbie at courtship, your lack of confidence didn't hinder you from obtaining her MSN and not ICQ because ICQ's popularity was going downhill at that time due its fleeing users who were sickened by that "UH-OH", that pissant ugly fat fuck girl from school is online now and she sends me a message so I think I should go on invisible status now" annoying shit message sound. You didn't know better at that time. You really didn't because you were a fucking nOOb at flirting. You very well remember how you overused this sequence of conversation whenever you saw her online:

"Hi! Don't see you online too often nowadays. I missed you lah. You got miss me anot?"

or when she answered the phone:

"Hello! How was school today? Didn't really get to speak with you during lunch time. I missed you lah. You got miss me or not?"

to which she would always reply:

"Hehe."

and you would pause for a bit to think of something to say to her because she would never say anything else after that "Hehe."

Then there was your first girlfriend. You still remember how you coupled up with her. You asked her, "Will you be my girlfriend?", as simple as that, very much like how any pathethic, unromantic guy would ask someone to marry them by popping the question, "Will you marry me?" instead of saying, "Baobei, let's shag the shit out of each other tonight because I want to impregnate you so that we'll have no choice but to get married and live happily ever after." So, that was the stupidest way of getting yourself committed, but it was extremely effective in a noobish kind of way since both you and here were fucking noobs. She was your girlfriend and you were her boyfriend. It was only a status and nothing else happened, not even a lousy peck on the cheek because once again you were a fucking Noob (and a fucking Saibot). After two months or so, you told her that you were bored of the whole thing and said that you and her were better off as friends. She was cool with it and so it ended just like that. But some of you might have clinged on longer and when you were fed up of staring at her face most of the time you were in school, you asked for a break up and she went into EMO-MODE gao gao. And after that you avoided each other acted as if the other was some retard you did not want to be related with.

Anyways, after SPM it's a whole new story. New friends, new experiences, new life.

to be continued..



someday.

ok ciao!

lies...such a wonderful thing

Lies, lies, lies, lies, lies,

Everybody does it...
All the time...
Wherever they are..
People lie..

Makes you wonder doesn't it...
why people tell lies...
Is it that hard to tell the truth till we end up telling lies...
Heck! we cant even believe what people say half the time...
people tell lies to get outta trouble..
people tell lies to cover up secrets..
people tell lies to get something they want...
people tell lies to cover up other lies...
people tell lies to protect themselves n others...

well lies are very handy..
and now...ive gotta think up of some "good" reason to go out on the 30th..
ack cant afford to miss counting down merdeka wit wai hong n the bunch of em retards =P
with the plans we got....its gonna be something wicked sick for sure..
LOL!

clubbing

alcohol

wh's empty hse

a gang of misfits

food

+ wicked tracks

- girls (yes we are a bunch of sad fucks )

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ONE FUCKING GOOD MERDEKA CELEBRATION!!

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Some m(E)mo shit @ 2 in the morning

Nothing else matters

So close no matter how far

Couldnt be much more from the heart

Forever trusting who we are

And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way

Life is ours, we live it our way

All these words I dont just say

And nothing else matters...

Escape

Face down, to the ground.

I'm walking away, towards my goal. So far, so.

Eyes towards the sun, I hear. I listen.

Ever so slow, I'll take a chance.

Victory, I won't let that wheeler-dealer follow me. Time runs out.

Authority, I can't let those interferers pull me down, get one up (on me).

Face down to the ground.

Who's laughing now?

Never say never , I'm hearing you say.

Take it or leave it, I carry the key.

Face down to the ground, I'm walking away

Ever so slowly

Ever so slowly...

I dont really know why im so fucking inspirational in the wierdest of times..

Probably my way of dealing with my screwed up life's shit...

ciaos...school in 4 hours..

need some shut eye..

and its fucking monday!

dont think im gonna make it through though..

this time round...

not even my chills can save me..

pulled me in too deep,

too deep; to recover

Happy B'day Eunice..

Just came back frm dinner @ Saisaki..
Celebrated Mr.Chan Wai Hor's gf birthday..
since im not in the mood to talk...ill let the pictures do most of it =.=

Mr. Chan and his girl, Eunice

Ronald Lee..

Ah wing/Nasi Lemak (hmmm no pic of his girl, Janice)

Lim Mun Cheng (him n his coloured jellies =.=)

Mun cheng was daring us to try this...by playin paper,scissors,stone =.=

His second attempt..after nasi lemak saved us by taking away the first bowl.

Ciggie break~! (for those 2 lar)

The bunch of us...

Anyways you would be surprised how lame jokes have a way of getting to you...

lol i wonder whether its the way the person tells it...or just how lame the joke is that makes it funny..

so it goes something like this... "One day a sweet was walking, it felt thirsty and drank some milk... then it became a milk sweet" wtf?!

There's another 1... "One day a bun was walking in the forest, then it felt hungry and ate itself.." double wtf lar..!?!

around 9 we ciao...after not deciding whr to go n what to do...

wwai,ronald,wh went and duk boh(play pool lar) n wai hor n the rest..err dunno whr they went lar

lazy to write d... ciao la

isn't it just disdainful the way life is?

There is just a certain something about being all alone...
enveloped in absolute darkness..
the solitude...
the silence...
the cold...
the emptiness..
the fear..
such satisfaction it brings me,
pure bliss to those who have stumbled upon how gratifying it can be.

I don't have a reason..but
i just love being in that void..
the way it heightens my senses...
the way it makes me realise things...
the way i'm able to contemplate on things...

The sorrow which slowly fills me up..
trickling through a pinhole..
into my soul..
as much as it scars the fragile hearts of humans..
is just another shallow emotion..
and for that;
i seek all so desperately..
for a cure to a diesese...

In the darkness is where i truly feel alive..
everything just seems much more real...
the pain felt..truly hurts to an untolerable extent..
the lonliness..truly frightening...
the silence...absolutely nerve-wrecking..
and yet there is where i found my comfort zone,
my solace..

Yet,
i can only enjoy it for brief periods..
and then i'm thrown back into a world..
where struggles are futile ,
failure is wide spread ,
and depression runs wild.
But..depression is just a state of the mind.
still it causes so much agony.

Pain...
is just a temporary distraction...
although momentarily..
it has saved me countless of times...
countering emotional pains...
by diverting it with greater torment; physically
sometimes i wonder whether it was worth it..
in the end..it was

Till now..
as much as i yearn for you to be my saviour..
i'll just let fate decide...
and if so our paths shall cross, fates entwine..
your company will replace my solitude,
your voice will shatter the silence,
your touch will give me warmth,
your love will fill my emptiness,
your heart will give me unwavering courage,
and..
you will replace my darkness..
ultimately.

ree tar der edd...

Ah...after falling sick for the second time
im getting better for the second time..
in two days...
lol must be some badass bug flying around..
cuz its owning my immune system XD~~

anyways...this idiot here..
is getting addicted to DotA all over again!
playing every night.. wit wwai n the form 4's
showing off my OMGWTFBBQ! l33t noob shit skills..
Spm is bout 3 months off..n im wasting time playing dota =.=
i know im wasting time..lol but i keep sitting here =(
n to makes things worst everytime i open the book...
i just stare at it...omg lar!

nvm that..ill just find some way to study later la!
anyways...this weekend..
was totally unproductive..
spent half my time on the computer watching hard gay!
for those sad turds out there who hasnt watched HARD GAY on YOUTUBE...
do so..
it'll be some of the funniest shit you would have ever seen
anyways...gonna go back to sleep..
ciao~! FOOO~!
HARD GAY~!! HOOO~~!
OKAY~! FOOO!~
wtf!? HOOO~!!?
ciao lar...

again...

Once again...

1) Do you lie about your age?
~ occasionally lar

2) Do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"?
~ i like gay boys...cuz they're happy..wtf

3) Do you prefer blondie or darked haired guys/girls?
~ green-haired freaks.. wtf

4) Are you currently single?
~no im double...

5) How many things in the past do you regret?
~not many..

6) Do you have a best friend?
~nope..but i do have best friends

7) What do you want to be when you grow up?
~hard gay! fooo0! nah....
maybe someone who sits in a full leather chair and tells others what to do!=D

8) Who was the last person you hugged?
errr my granma...who died whn i was 9..

9) Have you ever had your heart broken?
not gonna tell...but if u wanna know i did get my finger broken..

10) Have you ever thought about having plastic surgery?
after watching niptuck? NO FUCKING WAY!

11) Do you like your life?
~its live-able...

12) Do you shop at Macy's?
~nah...i dont like the name Macy...Zara just sounds more exotic la

13) Has one of your friends ever stole a girlfriend from you?
~wut girlfriend?

14) Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
~plenty of times...and ive stabbed them even more after that =)

15) Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
~boys..because i like gay boys wtf? hard gay~! FOOO~! wtf!?

16) How long have you had friendster?
~since...i cant remember

17) Have you ever cheated on someone?
~cheated in exam got ,cheated in monopoly got , cheated in need for speed got but not that la!

18) Has anyone ever cheated on you?
~dunno...any1 wanna be the first person to try and see what i do to you?

19) Have you ever slapped a girl in the face?
~yea but trust me she aint no girl...does that count? =x

20) What is one of your biggest fears?
~id rather u ask me in my face...

21) Have you ever skipped a class?
~pfft...in stella maris u HAVE to skip classes

22) Has anyone close to you ever passed away?
~yea...my granma, my sis, my dog which i forgot its name..=(

23) Have you every cried yourself to sleep?
~nope...but ive tried laughing myself to sleep..

24) Have you ever been able to get someone out of your head?
~was there supposed to be somebody up there?!

25) Do you believe in the saying "once a cheater, always a cheater"?
~hell yea...im still cheating in monopoly XD~~

26) Have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out that you were right?
~never had good feelings bout anything...doubt shall always be there

27) Do you ever wish you were famous?
~yea as famous as HARD GAY~! FOOO~! OKAY~! HOOO~!wtf

28) Do you ever wish you were a girl?
~i wish you were a girl..


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